Its Not Meant To Be =(

I’m ok. I’m cool. I’m fine.

Okay! I lied!

I feel down. I feel hatred. I feel sick. I feel betrayed.

That’s truth!

First.

I nvr lied. I never ever did. It’s the truth bout me. I changed? I never changed. This is me.. Since high school, this is who I am. When I’m here, I changed to the person u ppl like. That is not me. I’m not used to this place that’s why I keep it low. Whn I got use to it, I will be myself again.which I am now. I dun hve any idea that u would hate the way I am. Mybe I need to stick to the person that u ppl want me to be. Then u ppl will like me. Right.

Second.

If u hve problem wit me. Come to me straight. Dun get others involve. If u want to settle stuff wit me come direct. Dun spread rumours to others. I did mistakes. I know. I’m sorry if I did. But dun tell others bout it.

Thirdly.

Ppl have feelings. U have feelings. I have feelings. When u wannna say something think bout others feelings. Did I ever give a fuckin problem to u! no! then why should u do tis to me. If u think I’m a biatch, up to u man! I dun give a damn hell care. I respect the person who alredy confront me. Thanks man. U clarify things wit me. U r using respect words . sumpah! Ur the man. See?? That’s the way it should be. Not give a bang by commenting sumtin or spreading rumours. I’m a human, a gurl. Not an animal u can do wut u like.

Fourthly

Mybe I been surround by ppl who really love spreading rumours, hating ppl witout concrete reasons. Hate the person juz bcuz being gedik and all. Ask urself peeps. R u being nice? Ofcoz u bein nice cuz u only saw the bad in others. Right? Yea totally right.

Lastly

Everything hppen for reason. Ppl hate me for reason. I have reason by being like this. I will chnge if I hve reasons. Dun give me reasons if I changed after tis. I will chnge. U will not hve any idea on wut I’ll change to. You you and you and you have broke my trust. That’s all u can hve from me. That’s all. I’ll end this for good. For everyone good.

Friends? Still friends. Bestfriends? Friends is enough. I’m hurt. Nobody cares. I’m rotten from the inside. No one cares. U say things bhind me? Go on.live wit it. I nvr do that cuz u r my friends and will alwiz be tht way. I love u all. But wut bout all of you. Mybe its too good to be true. Or it will nvr be true. Friends forever? Maybe yes, maybe not.